What do I really want?

I'm 33. One day I woke up in the morning and I felt like a kid once more. 

I want to run 10 Miles but the next day I didn't want to run even 1

I want a family, a wife, and kids. I wanna be free to do whatever I want! 

I want to live the dream, Travel, Snowboard and Skydive all day long. I want to live on a farm far away from all that make people cocky and dumb.

I wanted to be a famous athlete and have everyone know who i am and look up. I want to run away to a place where no one knows who I am and I can be myself once more.

I want you to love me and make me feel special. I want to be left alone.

I don't like to be alone but i wish everyone would just leave right now, yes I said leave me alone.

I want to own a big business with lots of employees and a famous domain name that everyone knows.

I want to live a simple life: I think I'll call in sick today, why not, take a day off.

I want to take a vacation, go sit on the beach in Panama or Cape Town. I love you so much and want you to come but your MD is stopping us from having fun.

I want to have lots of titles like MD or PHD author of.. I made it without all of this till today, why do you look at me like I'm not compatible with some?

I don't care if their grass is green. I want mine to be greener!

I want to be remembered but I wish I could forget.

What do I really want?  

But I don't want your help.