death is a word which i use often in a light and very clear  meaning...... until it starts to hit yourself or somebody in your family!

my mothers heart seems to be not in order and suddenly all these thoughts and fears rise up in me, the moment comes close, where i will loose here............in this very moment tears burst out and the very small girl in me takes over, but is this not what i mentally always knew that it would happening one day????? i love my mother, for years i had to learn it, and now she maid leave this world and again i would start to understand , what was the beginning and the end of the chain........

its not enough to enjoy the moments, its not enough talking about everything,

its time to accept, that there is a limit to everything and it will be never enough and we better learn to say thank you to what we trully received...... ...