I have had a few problems at work since I came back from holiday, I don't know, just not feeling respected or appreciated. And yesturday was a hell of a day and I got shouted at for no reason. And this morning at work, while I was waiting to see how yesturday's problems would be solved. My phone rang and my mum told me my brother's dad (her first husband) had died.
I got angry at her for being over dramatic while I am at work. Got off the phone and just started sobbing, I mean really crying. Everyone was shocked around me, and it was sooooooooooo weird.
As the politics of the day continued and as usual the little guy loses....(big bad wolves tend to win)...I just kept crying.....in one to one with my boss, with my co-workers. While not really being apoligised to by those who treated me badly the day before....
and finally at 3.30 I couldn't stop...tears ran down my face at every corner....
I blubered a few words and went home.
I am so sad, for my brother, for his half brothers, for my mother and his step-mother....
and for me (although I think it has nothing to do with his death)....
Does anyone understand why this is happening?
Or know how do I stop, cause I must look insane?
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