what are we? we are a complex of emotions, thoughts, wills..
I believe is that all of us is seeking for love. when I say love, I mean.. someone to love and cherish.
somebody to care, somebody to look after, somebody to share with.. but mostly, somebody who will be able to accept us in any way that we are. somebody who will know to accept the good and the bad, somebody who will understand, somebody who will comfort us in times of need. somebody to tell us the right words when needed, even if you know it is not the truth, you know that this somebody has said them because this somebody understands how much we need it. somebody to say, that everything is ok. and if not, it will be.. somebody who will support you, somebody who will care about you, somebody that complete everything that you dont have.
and when you find this somebody, you are willing to give all of these back to him.
no, its not that easy.. it takes time to feel it, it takes more time to understand it.
sometimes.. you understand it when it is too late.. you felt it, but it took you so much time to understand it. sometimes it is just too late.
but this feeling that burns inside of you. this feeling you call love, this feeling that you know its there and it will never leave you, no matter what, no matter how much time have passed.. its there. it might be hidden, it might be locked, but it is there. you might forget about it. but it is there..
and then you feel like you lost everything and anything you ever wanted.
"I will do anything for love, I would die for love"
this need, this burning thing inside of you. this natural feeling all of us have. this is the goal of our lives..
not money, not success, not fame.. but to be with someone that you know he is there to give you anything you ever needed, and you, you are willing to give everything to this somebody..
so you say to this somebody that you would do anything for this somebody, for us, and you are actually doing all this.. anything just for you to be together.. to stay, to keep this somebody, this amazing feeling of.. well.. you feel complete..
but then something happens there.. something went wrong.. nothing is easy, nothing goes smoothly like you want to..
so tell me, if you would do anything to have it, anything in the world, anything! you are even ready to die for that somebody or maybe die because of that somebody.. because you know you cant live again in this cold lonely place.. if you are willing to go to hell and back just to be again with that somebody..
how come that you are never ever able to forgive about this something.. or to try over and over and over again to overcome the obstacles, to try to fix whatever was needed to be fixed, just for you to be together again with that somebody you have been searching for so long..
when you find this somebody dont ever let go. no matter what.
step 1 - believe in yourself and know how to accept yourself. believe that you are worthy, that you actually deserve this. and know to accept the whole package of YOU, you are a complex of emotions, thoughts.. accept it. deal it. if you will not do it, how do you expet this somebody to accept you? yes, it is a huge project, yes, it will take time, yes, you even put to yourself obstacles every now and then.. but know how to overcome them. it is never too late.
step 2 - belueve in the one you love. know, that no matter what. if you feel that this somebody if feeling the same as you, and maybe even more.. he might be back.. maybe your roads will cross again sometime.. maybe this somebody is still on step 1 and working on accepting himself and understanding.. but this somebody has to cross your way someday, somehow. yes, if you too belong together, nobody can take it away from you. this somebody might need some time.. maybe this somebody still struggling on step 1.. who knows?
it not about being super romantic or innocent at all. I actually believe in it. and I know, if our roads will ever cross again.. I know, I will never let go again. becuase I care about this somebody, I love this somebody enough to even sacrifice my life just for this somebody to be happy. |