I am full of energy, some of it really positive, some of it not. I am feeling every emotion under the sun (in the space of a few hours)….I am happy and then suddenly depressed. I misunderstand people, and relate to them deeply. I love my friends, and then I am very angry at them. All this to you (the normal person) seems like a bad thing I am sure. Your thinking, go get help for that, take something, anything just don’t be so extreme, it’s not healthy…..

But I must tell you, for me, this signifies that I am returning to life.

Sure I don’t want to stay this unbalanced forever, but after a long period of being mentally and emotionally dead, un-stimulated and well bored, in London, in my relationship, in my job etc….it’s only natural that a bit of life flowing through my veins again would knock me sideways (My neighbours friend’s have gone as far as to described me as their Kramer…).

What is good about being like this, is that you find out who your friends are, and who let’s say are a bit light weight.

Thanks to my two new friends from the Marker (who are no longer virtual as of this week) who caught me in different states of craziness, and forgave me anyway (even found it funny). And sorry to the innocent guy who tried his luck at starting a chat with me…and caught me in a bad mood…..I remember his final words to me….

‘I only wanted to say hi’.

The best thing for me to do now, until calm once more prevails….is to paint.

So after a dry spell of 6 months I finally got some canvases today. Wish me luck.