I am so fed up! I can’t do it anymore. I have invested more time on this then on my fucking education.

I just can’t spend onther moment trying to be sexy!

I stink at it. Ladies, you know what even gents, why oh why do we have to be sexy?

I can’t do it anymore, I am bad at it. I drop food on myself when I eat. I fall over my feet when I walk (forget heels), I speak nonsense when I am nervous. I just can’t do it.

Can’t we just agree that sexy, just like pretty, or smart you’re either born with it or not. Do I have to keep trying?

Aren’t there better things I can do with my time….learn a language, fight for world peace, eat healthy. Hours of my life dedicated to something I have no natural flare for. It makes me so mad.

So I won’t get the guys….so I won’t get whistled at, I can live with that (can’t miss what you never had). I will wear a paper bag over my head, and give up.